Feeling Blue

The weekend got off to a really rough start. I'm just hoping that this funk I'm in goes away, because I hate myself like this.

I had my disability hearing Friday morning. It wasn't AS bad as I thought it would be. Honestly, I don't remember much that was said. The judge was upset with the results of my Psych exam. He kept saying it was ridiculous and so far off. But to be honest it probably is spot on. The Judge like everyone else looked at me and said I did not look like a person with the score the Psych gave me. Don't judge Judge! Not a book by its cover or a person by their smiles.

After court we took the boys to the park. We had the place to ourselves. Probably because we were the only dummies out in the heat! David played a little Basketball. Ant rode his bike and Alex chased birds. And I chased them all...with my camera;). Ill share the pics once I get them up loaded!

Later that dad I got a call from my moms boyfriend telling me my Jimma (grandpa) was not doing to well. By the time I had called the rest of the family, I got another call that he had passed away. It happened so fast. I didn't even get to say good bye. I hadn't seen him in almost 3 years. And even if we spoke different languages, the love was always there. Love is the same in every language. I was in bed crying last night when all of a sudden Bubu face came so cleary to my mind. She passed away many years ago and I had almost forgotten what she looked like. But last night I saw her and my heart was at ease. I could hear her laughing. I could see her smiling. They are together again...forever. And forever in our hearts.