Whats a girl gotta do for a run around here?!

This year I committed to getting healthy.  And I admitted to my commitment issues.  January I spent a lot of time thinking it all out.  What I needed to do.  What I wanted to do.  How committed I could be and how to keep my commitments.  Wow, that's a lot of C words for someone with issues. So this month I decided to get my butt in gear.

I started counting my calories again.  And I also started walking/running again. I downloaded the C25K app and started on the 1st of the month.  Two weeks in, no budge on the scale, but I was feeling great!  My stress and anxiety were at an all time low.  I was calmer and less snappy.  Just all around better.

Week one was pretty smooth.  Run one minuet and walk one and a half.  Week 2 was harder, but manageable.  I had figured out my breathing.  The hardest part was trying to figure out how fast or slow to go.  Of course being on a treadmill in the garage isn't ideal, but I'm not comfortable yet with running in public.  On the last day of week 2 I slowed down my run and sped up my walk a little bit.  I also find that running on an incline is less awkward.

I noticed some pain in my ankle on the first day of week two but figured it was just because I was finally using them again!  That day, after my timed run was over, I decided to stop.  The past few runs I kept going a mile or 2 more.  I took a rest day. The second day of week 2 was hard.  Then came day 3.  Half way though the run, I called David, yes on the phone, from the garage.  I figured if I stopped to switch shoes, I wouldn't come back out and finish it.  So he brought out my other pair of sneakers out, I switched shoes and jumped back on.  By the time I was finished, I could not put my foot flat.  What the heck did I do!

Now its been 5 days of no running and I am dying here.  I'm angry and upset.  I still cant walk with my foot flat.  I have been putting my weight on the outer part of my foot.  And of course that has me hurting clear up to my knee.  I've stretched and rubbed. Heated and cooled.  I'm trying to think back if I have ever had this problem.  Bad knees, yes, but never my ankle.  Great...

No running and only light walking and the pain is still there.  I did run a little bit at the park yesterday but stopped when I realized I was running on the side of my foot.  Better not make things worse right?!  I think it might be because of my flat feet and my need of proper running shoes.  The shoe problem I can fix, but there isn't much I can do about my feet.  But I will be back at it again soon.  Even if I have to start this program all over again.  I will.  Because running has been better than any medication I have been given to help me sleep and calm my anxiety.  And its cheaper than therapy.  But mostly because I really enjoy it.

Someone told me that maybe I'm just not meant to be a runner.  I think I'm meant to be what ever I want to be.  So even if I have to take another week off, I will get better and keep on trucking.  I may not be as fast as you.  And I'm sure as heck not going as far as you, but I do what I can and that is enough for me.

Have any of you done the C25K?  Did you finish it?  What was your hardest week?  I was nervous about week three, but now I am super excited for it.